will never be with a girl you have fallen in love with? Seriously ignore this thread, it is reasonable to do so....but how many of you have lost someone you have loved to someone else or someone better than you? I'll post how it goes down but right now my sister is getting married to honestly a guy i really appreciate. While that happens, this girl i have fallen head over heels for (and yes...she was 18 when i was 23) is her bridesmaid. He has cheated on her twice and looks like he is holding a ponch over his stomach, but i fucked up and ruined it all by doing what i thought would make things easiest. I am asking for no pity, but a real understanding. I am at my family wedding watching a 2nd girl i think is amazing, who deserves this girl, spend time with her and make her happy. Am I a drunk? Yes. Am i looking for pity? Here, are you kidding me bros? but is it real. Yes. A lot of things we joke about are real, but why are people so quick to run away? I have been waiting for almost 2 years, miserable, for my sister to be happy I was at her wedding (and she willl be) while also realizing i've thrown 2 years of my life away. This isnt really a question, just something to make you see I am a real person, while also realizing life isnt perfect and we all throw things away in the name of love and something we have no control over. Am I the only one fucked up? If so i will gladly leave.