The love of my life is gone.

Discussion in 'Locker Room' started by Just Kevin, Jul 31, 2015.

  1. My mother died last night after a year long battle with Pancreatic cancer. I watched her breathe her last breath as tears ran down my face, I felt like I was outside my own body as I heard the sobbing of the other 3 family members around me and then the final breath, the death rattle, and I knew that from that moment forward I would never hear my mother's laugh, hear her say she loves me, be able to wrap my arms around her. I am distraught, I feel less than whole. A huge part of me was viciously torn off and the wound still lies wide open and bleeding.

    I don't know what to do next.

    I hope none of you ever have to experience what I am at this moment and for those that have I need your advice on how to get through this.

    Thanks.
     
  2. I'm sorry you had to go through this and for your loss. It's a always hard to see someone go, must to see your mother I know it must be hard for you. You deserve to mourn for her, but don't let it control you. The best thing you can do is keep her in your memories and continue to live as a man that would make her proud. I hope everything else goes well for you man, no one deserves to go through such pain.
     
  3. Yeah, my mom died of cancer two years ago - Kidney. It was rough, but you'll move on, trust me. It's not easy, but it gives you perspective on life, if that makes any sense. Sorry for your loss bro.
     
  4. #4 Green Jesus, Jul 31, 2015
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    I am really sorry for your loss. Just remember she's only gone once you forget her, and I hope you power through this soon. My heartfelt sympathies for you and your family, no one deserves this

    And you don't have to go through this on your own, your friends care, be it where you live or here on the forum. Don't hesitate to talk to people
     
  5. Man, that sucks to hear.

    My condolences, Kev! I'm so sorry for your loss, my prayers go to you and your family.

    Stay strong, buddy.

    And if you need to talk to somebody, feel free to hit me up.
     
  6. Prayers to you Kev.. It's a tough time but you'll get through it. I don't know what I'd do if I lost my mother either but it wouldn't be good I'll tell you that much but with the support systems around me I'd endure.
     
  7. My dad passed away 10 years ago. Take it one day at a time. And as much as it hurts and completely sucks, let yourself feel everything and don't go numb. You have a few rough days to focus on getting through -- arrangements, visitation, funeral/memorial, etc. -- and after that you can just sit and grieve and mourn and go through it however you need to. As time goes on, it doesn't get better, but it does get easier. You'll think back on memories with her and smile more than you cry. Prayers for you and your family.
     
  8. Very sorry to hear this Kevin, I remember your status from a while ago about the situation, devastated to hear she hasn't pulled through. Stay strong man <3
     
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  9. Very sorry to hear that Kevin, my dad has been in and out of hospital this past year and is not as well as he has been, it comes a time when your parents really do age before your eyes, do wonder who much time I have left with him, we are here for you, again sorry for your loss.
     
  10. Keep her memories alive and live your life in a way that she would be proud to see. There is nothing you can really do right now except mourn, but that is natural. Grieving is a part of the process and it will be easier over time until eventually you will just be able to look back and smile fondly on all of the amazing memories you have with your Mother. When my Dad died I felt like shutting it down and to some degree I did... people thought it was a bad sign that I just wanted to be alone all day but I really didn't give a fuck. It was how I dealt with it and I did my grieving the way I needed to. So that's all I can really tell you; do whatever you need to do for YOU in the coming days/weeks. but then remember you are going to come out of the other side of the fire a stronger person for having gone through all of this.
     
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  11. Whoops. Wrong thread.

    So sorry for your loss, Kevin. If you need anyone to talk to, feel free to PM.
     
  12. I'm so sorry, Kevin. You are in my thoughts. And if you ever need someone to speak to just hit me up with a PM and we'll talk for as long as you want.
     
  13. Thanks for the kind words and support everyone. I appreciate it very much.

    With my family by my side it has still been hard but I'm pushing through and I will be alright. I still break down and cry at random times, started crying while in line at Kroger earlier tonight. Told everyone why I was crying and it became much less awkward.

    Anyway, thanks again guys.
     
  14. Sorry for your loss, man.
     
  15. A tribute video made by my sister.

     
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  16. Maaaaan this is like the Dusty Rhodes tribute vid all over again :(
     
  17. Thanks again to everyone for the support and kind words. I'm currently settling in with my father in North Carolina, I will be nursing him back to health from a broken arm and fractured finger. He broke the humerus bone in 2 places, so I will be cooking meals, cleaning, and keeping him company during his 2-3 month recovery. After that I'm not sure where I'll go, I'm open to and able to go anywhere in the world.

    Anyone have suggestions on a good spot for a 38 year old single male to settle down?
     
  18. Northern England.
     
  19. I'd say that really depends on your plans/goals and your personal preferences more than anything else. The good thing is you've got plenty of time to consider it, weigh your options, and research places you might like to live. I'd say just consider what type of terrain and environment you prefer -- beaches, mountains, desert, etc. -- and if you'd rather live in the city or country/rural area or somewhere in between, where you can have the convenience of living close to the city without being right in it. And of course if you'd rather stay in the U.S. or move to a foreign country. Maybe if there's a country you've always wanted to visit and haven't yet, you could consider moving there? If you're looking to settle down for good, then it's not a small or simple decision, and one where you'd likely rather consider your own preferences and such. All the best as you help your dad and look for somewhere to go afterward.
     
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