Hey guys, I'm sorry for such an absence, but, here's what's going on. I suffer from manic depression, and sometimes, I disappear for a while. When things get bad. I got really down, and instead of taking the time to talk about it, I just went into seclusion, and, essentially said, "screw it all." I didn't self harm, or anything, but the thought of being social was just too much. I apologize for worrying anyone, but, want everyone to know that I appreciate the concern. Here is the very personal part: I am transsexual, and have had to come off my hormones, due to the reactions I was having. It was like I was taking everyone on a roller coaster ride they wanted to get off of, but, I'm the one telling the ride operator, "Just one more go!" each time we would slow down. I've had to take time to make peace with the things I've felt, and pick myself back up and start again. Today is not exactly the best day, either, because, today, my son turns 10. When I sent a message asking if I could call to tell him happy birthday, I was told, "You can take your happy birthday, and shove it up your gay ass." So I am dealing with that, too. But, I am telling myself, "I am more than my circumstance, I am better than this, and I will not be defined by bullshit". I have missed you guys, a lot. and though I won't promise that I will never disappear again, I will, honestly say, that I will do my best to at least let it be known, when this feeling comes again. There is the short version, and I have no ending for this, so I will just say: You take the good, you take the bad, you take the bad, you take them both, and there you have; The facts of life.